So it’s been awhile since I’ve posted. It’s like December didn’t even exist.
I slacked off a lot my good friends – I’m in week two of just snacking. Part of me had hoped I was pregnant just to justify my inability of self-control.
But I’m not pregnant, however the woman at the target check-out line was excited for me when I purchased the test.
So the holidays were a bust. I snacked, I worked out maybe twice a week (which is better than not at all) and my favorite hobby was turning on the Christmas tree lights, sitting in front of my television, and cuddling with the dogs on my couch.
The problem is, I don’t feel guilty. I gained back the little weight I had originally loss, but I’m okay with it. To be honest, if it wasn’t for television and Victoria secret models, I would never even try to lose weight in the first place. I like my hips, my booty and the way I look in dresses. I could use some help (admittedly) in the upper region of my body, but I have yet to find a shake to assist with that problem.
The problem is, I’m confident and like the way I look. I’m not out if shape, I could eat healthier, but beyond that, I’m actually happy.
I’ve been as little as 108 pounds and as big as 148 on my 5’2 frame. I was actually more happy at 148 than 108. I learned a long time ago that it doesn’t matter what the scale says, really all that matters is how confident I am.
148 is a little big for my frame (I have chipmunk cheeks at that weight), but my point is that it is all about how you feel about yourself. I am guilty of comparing myself to skinny girls. Even when I was 108 I had these dreaded thighs. You can’t change biology.
The reason I bring this up now is because it is New Years and people seem to associate a New Year to new opportunity. And as much as I like the romance behind this, today really is no different than yesterday. What gave you the courage to start a new diet/exercise or health plan on New Years has always been in you.
My New Years resolution has nothing to do with weight loss or the Vi product, but instead has to do with my procrastination and fear of not being good enough, and procrastinating on starting my life. I love writing, and nothing makes my day more than seeing a complete stranger has viewed this blog. Someone took the time out of their life to read the nonsense I have written.
I did slack off on December on this blog, but I can’t help but feel my job here is done. I like the Vi product, I recommend it for people who want to eat healthier, and it’s actually quite easy to maintain. But as far as this blog goes, I think the slacking off is a sign I need to go back to my roots -creative writing.
With that said, if I were to stop this blog then it would completely contradict my entire procrastination on life statement I made earlier. Instead I’m actually going to be adamant about keeping up with this thing and finding new angles on this Vi topic.
Bottom line, don’t wait til the New Year for the new you. Start today! I am 15 days into the New Year and I’m finally beginning my resolution. Even though mine isn’t necessarily about weight loss, it is about confidence. I need the confidence to just start writing, and stop comparing myself to other writers.
I also just want to thank everyone who does read this; it honestly brings tears to my eyes knowing people like my writing (I know, I’m such a girl). Please I would love to hear about everyone’s New Years resolutions, it’s never too late. And I assure everyone I will keep up with this blog (as well as a few creative stories on the side) and be less of a slacker.
And I hope everyone had an amazing end to 2012!